You and Calhoun were at the same crossroads after going down the same path, and both of you got the same instructions from me. My apologies for striking up a comparison between you two but here is where he went right and you're going wrong over and over:
- Calhoun accepted his flaws and mistakes and changed to better how he serves others
- Norman, you say you have accepted your flaws and mistakes, good, but your decision to change is always about you, your personal gain
That is the fundamental problem I had with you. The two of you could do the very same action, write helpful posts on the forum, help in-game and yet have such contrasting results because of the mindset. You're always in this
demand for respect and acknowledgement. Yes, people should respect and acknowledge you, but you must
NEVER DEMAND IT.AFAIK, Calhoun didn't run around emphasizing any of his actions to be acknowledged nor beg/coerce whosoever to upvote him in his applications nor
demanded respect/forgiveness. He got back into VU because people wanted him back in and upvoted out of their own free will, because they saw the change and the difference and the selflessness in his motives; he
commanded respect/forgiveness. I told you this years back, and I'm telling you now again, these subtle differences go a long way with how people perceive you.
So right now, what I'm seeing is a
demand for respect/forgiveness driven by personal gain i.e. you want to be in VU again. And motive of change is driven by this reward you're after.
"if I write helpful articles,
I'll get back into VU, if I have manners to people I don't like,
I'll get a promotion, if I do this,
I'll get back that"
Whatever happen to "If I do this, it can help
you in...[insert problem]"? "I'm doing this so that
you all can benefit".
Do you see the contrast? I hope you do cuz that's a life lesson, not a VU application one. The last thing you need to think is people here are against you. You can drop your application here and apply somewhere else because you think we're unforgiving and stiff-necked in our ways and xyz reasons, but this fundamental flaw will manifest the same perception placed upon you every single time.