Hey, I think I don't wanna be heared for this place again, but I believe and I have been thinking about this since the first day I received a ban (January 2019) so here I am, taking the example of Panzer who had wrote an apology some months ago towards VU and I am merely here to do the same, no another intentions at all.
I will not annoy you so much because I am not liked here, but I am sincerely sorry VUs for all the shit that has happened in the past. I am not in position to even talk here but I am genuinely sorry and at this point I am just tired of hating myself for who I am, I just wish the things were different but well I've gained with all means an incredible hate in this community so what remains is just starting from 0. There's no other thing that I can do.
All I know is, I won't talk about future changes again. I won't ever mention that I changed or that I will; because I've properly seen that kind of sentences have to be demonstrated with more than words.
Life has put me through difficult situations during these months. Those VUs who I've talked with know what I mean, and it's all my fault - I won't blame others for who I am. I went in hard situations because of my ignorance and egoistic attitude, made me cry and lose things that I really cared about in life. So I simply can't keep being blind about fucking other people and ruining friendships, relations and that kind of things.
I cannot be like that anymore, so I just want to say that I am very sorry and I will just try to learn from my errors, learn from the VU philosophy that I've seen exposed in this forum and in the people that want to make this community better every day.
I just want you to forgive me for my errors, and promise you that while it matters or not, I am sorry for that and I've finally discovered that I was the problem, and will try to change it. And if it works for something I am willing to help like I did with EAD Championship on translations and writing. That is something that made me happy during these shit months, with humility and respecting everyone.