Nick: Vedder/Calhoun
Age: 18
Timezone/Country: GMT -3 / Argentina
Previous Nicks: Calhoun, biozcalhoun
Additional Comments: Hello everyone. I have been spending a considerable amount of time to think about what really VC:MP means to me, what I really want to get from this community and VU and I have reached to a conclusion: I want to join this clan.
- First of all, what has changed?
The last time when I applied, I did not elaborate too much. I did not believe that it was necessary; but I want to make it clear this time.
Right after I was banned from this forums, remaining with my ignorance and arrogance; it took no long time for life itself to show me what I was doing wrong. What I lacked.
People trusted on me - it was pretty obvious that I was not the same guy from 2013. That little kid. But 'not being the same' as before, does not automatically mean that I was a good person.
Calhoun, myself, back to those times when I was on VU; had grown up. 5 years turned out to be a good boost. But I lacked knowledge, respect for opinions of people older than me, experience - all those things which people were trying to give me and, trust me, it's not easy to look around when you are blindfolded.
Life hit me really fucking hard. As well as I lost everything on this community, "the second life of a kid", I lost many good things on real life for being like a piece of shit.
And that is my point here. I did not change for VC:MP, better said, I did not pretend to look like I changed myself to join a VC:MP clan. That does not happen. Soon or later enough, it is evident. It was the real life, my dudes, the one that showed me that I was fucking up.
One year and a half of being away have been a very good school on my personal development. What happened to me was not my unique inflexion point, but also my natural growth. Being a 16 years old kid with no worries about anything and with revolution airs on the back, to being 18 years old and acquiring much more responsabilities have changed the balance. That is the thing here.
I have turned into a much more patient person, much more convinced of my capabilities but not letting it get into my head, I can WORK with a TEAM and that was simply IMPOSSIBLE back at that time. I can LOVE people, I can take care of my friends, I strive to be a GOOD person knowing that there's always one much, much better than me.
I used to annoy so much, to think so much, to literally make problems for everything, to tend to believe myself as superior among others, to incentivate people to vote for me, to systematically configure things in order to gain something from a situation, but today; I simply prefer to live the real life. Enjoy the real things, act with humility, and knowing that there is always something to improve in the horizon.
Why do I want to join VU, what do I want here in VC:MP this time?
The answer is very simple: VU makes me feel very happy, and so does VC:MP.
You see, it is different when you grow yourself up in a game like this being 11 years old, than if you join it when you are 20.
This game has always been an essential part of my life and I feel no embarrassment for saying it. You see, back in the secondary school (and part of my primary school too), I had no friends. Not a single one. Discovering a virtual world where I could enjoy so fucking much to kill people with my laggy ass and where I learnt English was simply glorious. I did not need any more than that. I grew up with VC:MP, this has always been like my second home, and one always tend to get back home.
So, the reason is simple: I fucking love this game. And VU is the community that makes me feel more identified with my feelings about this game. People in VU love this game more than winning, care to help and save the community more than losing an event. And I do too.
- What can I give to VU?
You will have to determinate most of that by yourselves, hehe. I do not like to speak about myself more than a general profile. I think that I am funny; for instance - and I think that I am a decent guy. I like to help people (specially newbies), and in terms of in-game competition, I'm a goofball lagger who can capture any base or flag without receiving a single shot. Think about it.
Thank you guys.
