I hope you understand my point and don't take it hatred.
No problem, I or anyone of us would never mistake anyone's point for hatred. When I started off VC:MP, my nickname was "iam19cool". Later on, I realized it is just way 'too much shiny' so I switched to an even fancy name, 'MaDKiLLeR'. As you can see, I stick to it and it got normal along the way, including the absurd third grader combination of capital and small letters.
When SMD applied, his nickname was "SMD_ASSHOLE". Clearly, it didn't imply good so I suggested he drop the later part which he did, hence 'SMD'. Sounds like a good nickname!
If you want to stick to this nickname, it's fine. Build yourself a reputation so no one needs to judge you by our name. Otherwise, there's a large variety of names you can use for yourself!