Hello Lily,
You're a good friend. We have spent many hours playing together, but I'm voting no because of the same reason as stated by Charley. This is not the right time for you to apply. Also, what bothers me the most is there's nothing in the additional comments section of your application. To be honest, when I saw this topic, I was expecting to read what you've been doing meanwhile, what is your current stance about all the events which took place recently and where you stand now. Sadly, there's nothing at all. This application tells us nothing about you. This is because you know very well you were not kicked for playing under DeZ's nickname, but because of the events which followed the situation afterward. We'd genuinely like to know in the form of sincere and concrete statement from your side what brings you back, what has changed in the meantime and how you have managed to address all the issues of the past.
I hope you can express yourself better next time. As of now, it's a no from my side.