Skills-wise you're good, character-wise and your behavior also your friend circle is indeed bullshit, even tho if you give your 100%, believe me, no respected clan will give you a chance, you've screwed yourself being a puppet of someone known as Hunting and his crew, it's just that, start to do good, to have good, by luck because you can't do anything by your own for now,
Your story is like, you're a piece of paper, you teared yourself, now you can't go back, and there's nothing anyone can do about it.