so yeah, what i've been going through in the past few months on XE and many other places is because of the spoiling feeling i had due to what was then called "authority" to me. i insulted lower-class players then hid behind the strongest in order to not get in trouble because i simply felt cool, plus over the internet. i've started to slowly realize that this was more a way to humiliate myself rather than make myself look humorous. i've started to practice the art of treating everyone equally, with a few exceptions of course. even if it is all happening over the internet this also helps me a lot in real life and i definitely do benefit from what i hear from people here, that's exactly what my parents don't think though. they regard video games as a waste of time and brain cells and persuading them to think otherwise is a pain in the 5th spot. so yeah, that's that.