I wrote that, yeah. I think at the moment of applying to MK, in all honesty, all I wanted to do in that application is write some bullshit to get accepted no matter what.
You see, there is a pattern on which, at the time you're talking about, I had been jumping over and over: First, applying VU giving some shit justification, after that, applying to OSK giving another shit justification, finally, applying MK with triple shit justification.
To be brutally honest, I was not comfortable in VU. But that was not because of VU, I realize that I was not ready to belong to any clan, no matter what. I was also not very comfortable in OSK. I faced problems in MK too. It was all about me.
Bullshiting was my manner of getting accepted in any place, convincing with shit. I understand that you cannot trust me any longer, but all I can do is keeping up working hard trying to demonstrate my authenticity in any action. If you don't believe me, it's fine. I just hope that you realize that I don't want to lie anymore and that I feel much more ready to be part of a family like this again and much more mature about my behavior.
I do not need a clan to clear my name, as you believe. I am here for the simple reasons that I posted on the first topic. I have no another interest on joining a VCMP clan more than that: I like VCMP. Simple.
VU will not give me something to eat, VU will not get me a job. VU will not help me end my degree. If it was one of those things, then I'd maybe care more of 'cleaning my name'. But no. The reason for joining, is stated above.
Besides, every time I join a server, many people remember me with kindness. I have lots of friends here and I don't consider that my name is 'dirty'. Almost everyone greets me, anytime. Almost everyone have a good feeling towards me (from my perception).
I don't actually think I need a clan, I just want to be part of it.
How could VU clear my name, exactly? You see, BanJack, for example. He has joined VU recently. He is now a part of VU. But I still remember his shit. Do you think that VU will help people forget his mistake? Maybe, but not in a near future. Not in a medium range future, even. It's him who has some hard work to do. Here and now, only BanJack, with clan or clanless is the one who will prove people wrong or right. That's the same case with everybody with horseshit on the back dude.
I also agree that Major and Viper might be more deserving than me.
For Ulker, it's okay man, don't worry.