What happened to the clan you started?
Hi Charley; I misunderstood this message.
At the time I founded SL (Sherlockian Lepidopterans), I finally got what you were meaning about all the hard work that building a clan represents. My motivation was on a high level, there was a new wave of "fresh, new clans" getting started from the bottom and I went on that bandwagon.
Why did I found* (edit: I thought forge was forjar in spanish xD) it? Personally, I thought at that time that I was capable of leading a team, a group. Maybe I can. For instance, the only job where I'd find myself suitable is as professor. Where I can lead my own class; transforming others, helping others. But 'being able to lead' was not enough to make it successful.
Helping others, leading others and transforming others is what I wanted to get from SL, but my expectatives were so high. Being a leader and the carrier of a system, a complete structure that was just starting wasn't easy and I didn't have enough maturity. I carefully read your advices before finally going on in making a decision. Founding a clan was nice. Making the banner was nice. Making the rules was nice. But then simply something laked - and figured out pretty soon: I had no interest and motivation to develop such a high proyect.
The motivation behind that project remained on the pure expectative of being able to share my thoughts against sexism and other things to the rest of the people in VC:MP; but soon I realized that I was either not ready, or sincerely I did not have enough guts to do it. Enough time. Enough enery.
Soon, my fellow members started to leave, they were not happy with my activity nor the situation of the clan, my reputation was not good either. I went away no much time later and thought and I'm sure that I don't really want to be a leader in VC:MP any longer.
My interests have turned into a 180º change to having much, much fun ingame. No worries. No preocupations. Share moments with people in a place that I love. I regularly join LW and EAD and have fun with strangers, with friends, with anybody. I just have fun everyday and love that. I have met very nice guys from VU these latest times. I met some from the old times too. I want to share every damn good thing with them and with everyone else. Just that.
