I think, I am one of the few members who played with you on several occasions, especially in VK 's server so I'm in right to give my opinion on whether you should or not be in VU and consider if you are ready or not yet.
Dear friend try to find players with good skills and excellent attitude is difficult for any clan, so often we make the mistake of recruiting wrong players because of necessity to members increase. Many times, we've had more regard their skills in system that their skills in the battlefield. Sometimes it turns like an scale that puts us on a tightrope.
In my oppinion you aren't ready to be a VU member, so you should make an effort improving yourself if you wanna be part of us. Dude, I'm trying to help you because isn't your time yet so keep calm and continue striving, that our doors still continue open for you.